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Heavy Heart
Posted: Thu Jun 25, 2020 2:09 pm
by centrop67
Radar has a fast-growing cancer on his neck and spine.
What was originally diagnosed as a soft-tissue injury has morphed into the worst possible news.
His days are numbered.
I am so sad I can't even function.
We all know about this inevitable ending, but we sign up anyway. Why do we do this to ourselves?
Hug your dog extra tight today. Give them that extra treat, reward, or adventure, Record and save it somewhere, so you can feel that joy in your heart over and over again.

Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Thu Jun 25, 2020 9:24 pm
by TimL_168
I'm so sorry man.
Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Thu Jun 25, 2020 11:35 pm
by ladyjubilee
I'm so sorry to hear this. He's a great dog.
Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Fri Jun 26, 2020 12:01 pm
by TimL_168
Hey man. Thinking about him this morning. Radar has had a big part in leading a lot of people and dogs to answers and a better life. Tell him good morning from Endeavor and me. Give him some love and a treat from us if it's not too much to ask.
Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Fri Jun 26, 2020 1:00 pm
by ICE
I am so sorry to hear this. This by far is the toughest part of having a dog. It makes my eyes water just thinking about it. I am so sorry.
Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Fri Jun 26, 2020 1:09 pm
by centrop67
Thank you everyone. Please enjoy the closest thing I have to a Radar puppy picture.

Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Fri Jun 26, 2020 7:52 pm
by kalinoodlesoup
sending prayers. I'm so sorry
Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Fri Jun 26, 2020 9:15 pm
by centrop67
Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Fri Jun 26, 2020 10:40 pm
by TimL_168
My heart breaks for you and everyone in Radar's life. Safe passage my friend.
Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Sat Jun 27, 2020 6:27 am
by borellar15
Sorry Michael... I can’t even imagine.
Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Sat Jun 27, 2020 8:05 pm
by centrop67
Rest in Peace my friend.

Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Sun Jun 28, 2020 1:47 am
by ladyjubilee
I'm so sorry for your loss. Radar had a good life with you.
Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Sun Jun 28, 2020 4:46 am
by Mark77
I'm sorry to hear this. I thought he was getting better. You did the right thing.
M
Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Sun Jun 28, 2020 1:47 pm
by lindalew
Heart breaking. I am so sorry for you family's loss.
Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Sun Jun 28, 2020 6:31 pm
by Jay knowles
Sorry for your news Micheal, it will get easier given time, I’m sure Radar had a great life with you.
Thinking of you and your family .Jay
Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Sun Jun 28, 2020 6:57 pm
by centrop67
The last few days have been highly emotional for me.
I really didn't want to let him go, but it wasn't about me.
I break into tears constantly.
I think about the past - not enough about the good times yet...
* Could I have done something different to prevent this?
* Was he truly ready and suffering as much as it appeared?
* Did I do everything to satisfy Radar's needs?
* Would he have had a better life if someone else (more experienced) had rescued him?
The last two have nagged me for a long time.
On the positive side, the emotional support from the DS community is amazing. So may well wishes, prayers, and condolences. I don't know how I could ever show my gratitude to everyone.
There will be memorial video coming soon. I can't get through all the pictures and videos without breaking down at the moment.
I also plan to publish an open letter to the asshole(s) who abused and abandoned him. Little did they know what an amazing dog he was and how he impacted not just my life but many others.
This is the shelter photo that connected Radar and me:

Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Sun Jun 28, 2020 11:06 pm
by ladyjubilee
I had to make the decision with my two Dals. With the first, her cancer took time, and I had the vets try everything. To the point, one day she looked at me as if to say I'm tired mom, let me go. I actually have a photo from that moment. I can still see in her eyes she was ready for the pain to end. I promised I'd never do put another dog thru such desperate measures. Buttons went to sleep in my arms.
Gotcha was harder for me to make the decision. While we think she may have developed cancer, she was actually fading due to a unlabled degenerative neurological issues. She didn't appear to be in pain, and still had good days. I kept putting off. After summer, next week, no next week, not today may Friday, maybe Monday. Until the morning I was finally going to have the appointment at 10. She went into an agonizing crisis a bit before 5am. Because I wasn't ready, she suffered. (She had lived longer than a Dal's life expectancy.)
Gotcha's best buddy was Snuggles. He had his crisis a week later. I had to take him, but at least it was peaceful. Again, he was very old. The same for Peanuts.
With Buttons, I feel I knew the time. Someone else in my shoes, might have waited longer....actually, in my own shoes, I did wait longer, much to my guilt.
There isn't a perfect time. We will always question our decision. If we have the answer, we have control. We can make sure it doesn't happen again....except life doesn't work that way.
Also, many of my dogs have had one form of cancer or other. The reality is that just like us humans, they can get cancer. You didnt do or not do something.
You took good care of him. The photos show a happy healthy dog's life.
Also, you and I both know how many shepherds (pointy eared, dark color dogs) end up at shelters....and never come out. You gave him that out. Experience pales in the face of dedication and love (though Bramble might roll her eyes.)
Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Mon Jun 29, 2020 2:25 pm
by TimL_168
ladyjubilee wrote: ↑Sun Jun 28, 2020 11:06 pm
There isn't a perfect time. We will always question our decision. If we have the answer, we have control. We can make sure it doesn't happen again....except life doesn't work that way.
Also, many of my dogs have had one form of cancer or other. The reality is that just like us humans, they can get cancer. You didnt do or not do something.
You took good care of him. The photos show a happy healthy dog's life.
Very well put. Completely true.
Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Tue Jun 30, 2020 10:52 pm
by centrop67
Nothing would give me more joy than to see activity on this site ramp back up. I don't want my sad situation to affect that.
I couldn't think of a better tribute to Radar, than to see the pictures, read your stories, or discuss your questions than anything else.
Please don't let my sadness inhibit this.
Thanks.
Re: Heavy Heart
Posted: Wed Jul 01, 2020 10:56 am
by TimL_168
I've got a few pics from camping on father's day weekend I've been meaning to post. I'll get them up here today. Nothing as good as Foxy, but they're pics.